Every 6 weeks I am childless from Friday night until Sunday morning. Usually this is NOT a welcome break as I work 12 hours and am on-call for another 18. This being said, something is different this time. Maybe because my on-call shifts have been slow and very manageable. Maybe because I think it is healthy for Ella to be away from me (she is at my Moms). There is just something about being able to NOT be a Mom for a few hours that I needed. Even though I am at someones beck-and-call no matter what (either the hospital or the kid).
There are things I miss about my "old" life. I miss the ability to run a quick errand. I miss naps. I miss showering when I want. I miss simple outings with my dogs. Doing things that used to take 5 minutes now take 20.
I knew that I would be giving all of those things up when I became a Mom. ALL Moms miss those things. I wouldn't believe them if they said they didn't. Don't worry, I'm in NO way saying she isn't worth it. She brings me so much love and fulfillment and she is more fun than I ever thought possible (especially at this age). She makes me proud with her achievements and makes me smile every day!
PS- I am LUCKY and thankfull to have a wonderful supportive family that is willing to help!
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