Todays the day

This was my last visit with my little runt. Next time I see her it will look like a giant baby ate her! The next 6 weeks will be nothing short of torture and I hope I blink and they are over!

Hard to see but she has the funniest patches of long hair that stick out.

She is becoming quite the binkie girl.

Much better day.

Today was a much better day! I got my regular smiley little girl back. We have NO clue what her problem was yesterday but she seems completely normal today. She is back to 1lb 13oz. again. I leave tomorrow. I am excited to see my other kids but devastated to leave this one. I want the next 6 weeks to fly by as fast as possible so I can be back to having my baby in my arms!

The REAL 6/4 update

Someone is 2 weeks old!!!
Sorry last night I was too upset over the evening happenings to give a real update. Ella lost 30 grams putting her back to 1 12. Her hair CrAcKs me up! In the begining it covered her head but just stuck down next to the scalp. Now in several places it sticks up. The stick up pieces are about 1/4-1/2 inch long and are completely random. She likes to suck. If she can find a finger or thumb she is thrilled, if not she will just suck on her lips. She has gotton so much more mature since I got here, and bigger too. Even though she really hasn't gotten that much larger she looks bigger to me!

2 steps forward, one step back

Please tell me it's only one step back. Ella is exhibiting signs of sepsis. This has not been verified, but several small clues lead me to this one conclusion. Honestly this kills me.

I brought her pink blanket and headband so we could take pics but she just wasn't having any of it.

1 pound 13 ounces!

My preciousness...

Miss Diva

This is what they call her now. She just might be. I have noticed she is increasingly fiesty when I am there and she now throws little tantrums when I am there and not holding or touching her. This last one was a doosie. She kicked and grabbed her face and was just generally unsettled for about 15 minutes. Then I noticed milk comming out of her nose. Upon further investigation she had pulled out her feeding tube to where it was just sitting in her nose. I have my work cut out for me with this one!

Truckin' along!

Again no real news. Which is GREAT! Baby is doing fabulous. I am fairly certain she recognizes me (or my voice)! She smiles tons when I hold her and talk to her. I am head over heals in love with my little girl! She also just hit 1 lb 12oz!!!! YAY

Sleeping with "Mr. Snoodle"

Sleeping with her very cute toosh up

Awake chatting with mom